I had honestly forgotten that I had this blog. It was started one night when my livejournal world crumbled around me and I no longer felt safe there. But here I am, trying to re-new this writing of mine. It has certainly always been a passion and something I have needed to set things right inside me.
Since 2006, so much has changed and I'm not going to bore you with my past. There isn't any point in re-living most of that anyway. So instead, I give to you who I am today.
I will soon be the mother of three children, as my daughter will be born soon in May. My boys continue to be my entire life and focus and even at the ages of 9 and 6, I know they need me more than ever. I am a single (though partnered) mom now and in the process of rebuilding a life that I have to decipher along the way. It's really hard to pull away from a cozy corner you built for years and make something of your own and know that you may fail a few times first (and....I have).
I am still my upbeat, outspoken, and optimistic self, but I also have found a sense of remorse and grounding in some very hard experiences. I am rebuilding not only my outer self, but my inner one as well and there is still a lot of work to be done.
Overall, though times have been hard here and there...I'm doing better. I've found a lot of who I am and who I want to be over the last couple years and I look forward to being a mommy all over again, having a daughter, being back in school in the fall, and making things work with my own resources.
it's been a lot of hard work and many many tears have been shed, but here I am. And I still try to smile every day.
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